After much thought with my wife, we’ve decided that a quad relationship is much more difficult to work than a triad.  There’s a few things that point to this.  In nature, the most stable structure is a tripod, not a quadpod.  Granted if all the four legs of a quad are strong, sturdy, and equal, then it’s a great structure.  But a triad allows for one side to fall occasionally without toppling over the whole thing.  

And then there’s the other point.  If you have to “define” what equal is; if you have to “sit down and plan” how things can be equal: then what’s the point?  This should be something everyone strives to, to love everyone in the group as fully as possible.  That’s equal isn’t it?

Today closes yet another chapter in my book.  This chapter leaves behind Shelly and Alice.  Thanks for the memories, even if they weren’t so great!

Full steam ahead, we’re looking for preferrably a bisexual female for the third in our triad.  I’ll keep you posted on how it turns out, should be interesting, no?

Ah the wings of freedom.  Tis a beautiful thing.

- polyblogger

So this is an odd situation here.  One that seems to be unusually provoking me to be upset.  So Shelly and Paul are laying together on the couch, she’s seemingly shut me (and my wife) out for the last 10 days.  This is getting really old, real fast.

One thing I told her when we first started dating was that I was “high maintenance”.  I’m almost sickened by their displays of affection that one might think I was jealous.  Hell sometimes I think I’m being jealous.  And its hard for me to admit that.

But the way I see it is this.  We’ve got more to offer.  We look better.  We’re a better match.  We have a home.  We have stability.  We’ve spent more time together than she’s spent with Paul.  And yet she chooses Paul.  So that leaves me utterly confused.  But definately turned off to her too.  I’m so over this and I don’t even know why I’m taking the energy to even write about this.  It shouldn’t bother me anymore; I don’t care.  I don’t care and I can honestly say that.

Forgiveness comes free and easily from me.  Redemption on the other hand comes at a steep price.  One I don’t think she can afford or will ever be able to afford.  So for now I must deal with them constantly and incessantly annoying the hell outta me.

Anyway, gotta run.

Tis all for now.

- polyblogger

This is my first post to this blog, not sure what prompted me to finally write here. It makes me feel special to know, unlike my lovely husband, my title doesn’t start with a P. I’m a trend breaker!

Anyways, I guess the first thing I’ll do is explain a bit about myself. I’m seventeen, and married to one of the greatest men in the world, and I have the most beautiful baby. My marriage is perfectly happy, and I’d never crave more than I have already. I’m also an active member in a polygamous relationship.

I want to share these experiences that my husband (polyblogger) has written here about already from my point of view.

I’ll start with Alice. She and I have been dear friends since sixth grade. She met polyblogger a while after, and formed her own relationship with him. They broke up, later, polyblogger and I got married. We tossed around the idea of a poly relationship for a while. Honestly, at first, I wasn’t sure of the motives behind it. I wondered if I wasn’t satisfactory enough, or good enough for my husband. This thought was soon tossed to the wind, and I realized the real intentions of the poly relationship was just to share more love with more people. Finally, after much discussion, we decided to see if Alice was receptive to the idea, knowing that she was bisexual, and formed close relationships easily. The beginning of our relationship was very rocky, as we all three struggled to make sure that we weren’t closer to one than another. Just when things began to look like they might work out, afterall, Alice became bored with the relationship, wanting a one on one relationship with someone different. Her decision to leave, and our decision to let her go, was hard on both, polyblogger and I.

Both of us formed personal rebound relationships right after losing Alice. This I think caused a lot of the inner turmoil of our personal relationship with each other. polyblogger formed a relationship with a girl named Shelly. She immediately became a major part of our lives. Shelly began talking to polyblogger late one night, and they formed a connection that not many people ever manage to form. Thus, began thier relationship. polyblogger tried to include me, however, I just didn’t seem to fit in with the two just yet. I felt hurt, and worried that polyblogger was forming a relationship, independantly, when we had agreed that we would only practice full poly relationships, where each person loved another equally.

Looking back on this, I realize that I was doing the same thing, with another person. I had begun a fling with Tim. He had been a friend for a while, and one thing led to another, and I assumed more feelings were felt between the two of us than actually existed. Our entire, short, relationship was marred by pain, and hurt on both sides. I would get jealous when he would talk about leaving and starting a family someday with someone else, he purposefully remained ignorant to my feelings, and led me on, believing that he shared those feelings.

Things continued along these lines for a while. Shelly had a boyfriend, and couldn’t decide between him and polyblogger. Soon, the decision became harder as she couldn’t choose between her boyfriend, and polyblogger and I. I continued to do whatever I could to please Tim, and at the same time, try to hide the fact that I was angry at Shelly, for cheating on her boyfriend.

Things have escalated even more now. Shelly is 18, and free to leave if she wishes. However, her boyfriend, ( what did polyblogger call him? >< Paul? ) Paul, has moved up here. We have discussed the poly relationship with him, and he seems interested in the idea. Not sure though.

My fling however with Tim has ended. I don’t want to think much about it. It hurts that I have to admit that we’re completly over. I’m not going to write on it. ><

Anyways, that’s things how have been from my point of view. Hopefully, I’ll write again in here sometime!

- polyblogger’s Wife AKA Kayleen AKA MrsGoose